I passed my driving exam, at last. I couldn't believe I passed it. I was anticipating another failure as I messed up reverse parking. I hate it with passion. But since I strategically chose an early morning test - for the tester to be in a good mood then he wouldn't want to fail me, I passed. Just barely though. He had to point that out but I didn't care. I have my licence! I can drive around wherever without Uncle Lucio. I can't wait to go on a road trip with my friends. Bernie, another close friend got hers last Friday. We haven't seen each other since then and she promised me she'll drive me around. I suppose there wouldn't be any need for that as I got my own licence as well. Hee hee.

Anyhu, I spoke with my ex last night. He told me he missed me and said he was sorry. I don't know what to make out of that. Somehow, I know how his mind works. How whenever he feels guilty he sorta assert himself and just try to be even more obnoxious than usual. But that doesn't cut it anymore. He needs to grow up and to realize that if he can't get past the simple things, how can he handle uber-big conflicts? It's not just about us anymore. It's about him and his attitude problem. I even made a nasty comment about how if were to get married I would expect to be physically abused by him. He didn't find it very funny but I did. I know that I wouldn't want that in my life. A man like that wouldn't interest me and my interest towards him is wearing off. I don't mean to be MEAN but he caused this. He brought this on.

"Does he make you laugh?"
"He doesn't make me cry." - Ocean's Eleven

I was reminded of these lines last night. He tried to counter attack by telling me it was me who forced him to break up with me - me by saying that I was happy when we were broken up. I had to tell him that I am happy when we're apart because at least I no longer cry. Nobody makes me cry and nobody wants to spend the day crying. I don't want to be pathetic. I just want to be happy with him. If he can't give that to me, I'm sorry but I have to move on. I may selfish for saying this but I'm so drained and tired of having to work out a relationship when he's not doing anything. I did some serious butt-kissing when we got back together but he didn't do anything. I'm tired of having to be the one to work this out. It's all been ME, ME, ME. I could no longer do it. I'm sorry but I'm letting go - at least for now.