Mum had been an absolute angel to me for the past three days. She let me sleep in til one o'clock. I've been closing our store for two straight days hence having to go home at 11PM. I know my crappy roster is... crappy. But I actually prefer having to close than opening. I can't stand early mornings. I can't stand birds chirping. I can't stand rays of sunshine. I can't stand it all. It takes all my strength to get through the day if I wake up earlier than 11AM. I'm a natural night owl. I suppose you can put me on a graveyard shift and I'll be a happy camper but put me in an ungodly hour of 6AM and I wouldn't be a happy girl.

Just so you know... Nikki's back

"Hey, you haven't been your usual self lately. You don't update your blog. What's up with that? And why are you always out with your friends?"

My cousin asked me a few days ago. I've been trying to find my bearing for a few months now. My incident with my ex-boyf only confirmed that I was living a life I didn't want to be living. I want to be happy again and I would do it even if it kills me. So I went out with Niera last weekend. I brought her to the Uni bar and had a bottle of vodka before picking Iris up to grab dinner. I've been busy contacting friends I haven't kept in touch with to finally meet up. I feel like I have to do something because if I stop for just one second, I would have to think about him and that's something I'm not prepared to do.