Update:

I told the-guy-whom-Iris-refuses-to-name I can't do anything about what he told me right now cos my love life is in shit. He wanted me to actually accept the fact that my ex had already moved on and I should do the same.

"errr.. shouldn't that be my decision and not yours?"

He was trying so hard to explain to me that I should just embrace my new found freedom.

But I can't. I still feel that a lot of things had been left hanging. I still can't help but hope.

Hope that one day we can start fresh and just move on from all this.

Hope that once I get back I'll be able to clear my head and be sure on what I really want.

Hope that this thing that keeps on messing with my head is worth it.

Hope that he hasn't forgotten the three years we've shared together.

Hope that he can realize that he can count on me still.

Hope that I can decide what I really want.

Hope that maybe, just maybe he's thinking about me too.

Hope.

Because at the moment, that's all I can do about it. I've decided to put a stop to this. No more stalking him. No more embarassing conversations and no more tears for now.