Just a Smallville quote Carlo came across on the net...
CHLOE'S LETTER TO CLARK...
"I want to let you in on a secret. I'm not who you think I am. In fact, my disguise is so thin I'm surprised you haven't seen right through me. I'm the girl of your dreams masquerading as your best friend. Sometimes I want to rip off this facade, like I did at the spring formal, but I can't because you'll get scared and you'll run away again. So I decided that it's better to live with the lie than expose my true feelings. My dad told me there are two types of girls -- the ones you grow out of and the ones you grow into. I really hope I'm the latter. I may not be the one you love today, but I'll let you go for now. Hoping one day you'll fly back to me, cause I think you're worth the wait. "
Why are people so damn honest with what they feel? It's like they let their feelings known and just basically wait for the person to stomp on their hearts.
I think it's cute to be honest once in a while. Like at least let them know that you're still alive and kicking but please don't tell them that you're gonna wait. It's downright degrading and it gives the person an ego-boost.
Yes, I learned from past mistakes. I was fourteen when I had my first boyfriend. I thought he was THE ONE. We went out for seven months. Got pretty serious until the pervert wanted to sleep with me. When I said no, he dumped me for another girl. What an asshole. I stuck around for a few months hoping against hope that he will change his mind and come back to me. I had my heart torn at the early age of fourteen. I promised myself I'll wait till I'm nineteen til I get a serious boyfriend again.
I let him know that I'll wait for him til he made up his mind. The idiot played me for six months. Calling me and getting my hopes high. Telling me that he's committed but still wants me. I hoped against hopes that he can grace me even a single ounce of his attention. I acted like nothing was wrong. Like everything was still the way it was when we were together. I was an idiot who let another idiot took me for a ride. From then on, I learned my mistakes. I never ever tell anyone how much I love them. I never show them how much I care about them cos it hurts to be vulnerable only to be ridiculed.
What brought this on? I remembered almost four years ago, the same idiot caught up with me and asked for a another chance. I looked down at him and laughed at his face. I got over him. For a year and a half, it was hard but I did.
Now, whenever my cousins tease me about the little episode in my life - the time when stupid Nikki went gaga over some guy, I looked at them with a disgusted look on my face and asked, "Who?"
Now, I'm experiencing a slight de ja fucking vu. But I'm wiser. More experienced and more trained to handle this kind of pain. Sure, I'll feel alone and pained but after a few months, I'll look back on this and will be able to laugh my ass off on how I've been duped by this game called love - yet again.
As what Carlo would say, "Don't hate the players hate the game." I'm not saying I want to be a player, but it couldn't hurt to know the rules so I'd know how the game works...
CHLOE'S LETTER TO CLARK...
"I want to let you in on a secret. I'm not who you think I am. In fact, my disguise is so thin I'm surprised you haven't seen right through me. I'm the girl of your dreams masquerading as your best friend. Sometimes I want to rip off this facade, like I did at the spring formal, but I can't because you'll get scared and you'll run away again. So I decided that it's better to live with the lie than expose my true feelings. My dad told me there are two types of girls -- the ones you grow out of and the ones you grow into. I really hope I'm the latter. I may not be the one you love today, but I'll let you go for now. Hoping one day you'll fly back to me, cause I think you're worth the wait. "
Why are people so damn honest with what they feel? It's like they let their feelings known and just basically wait for the person to stomp on their hearts.
I think it's cute to be honest once in a while. Like at least let them know that you're still alive and kicking but please don't tell them that you're gonna wait. It's downright degrading and it gives the person an ego-boost.
Yes, I learned from past mistakes. I was fourteen when I had my first boyfriend. I thought he was THE ONE. We went out for seven months. Got pretty serious until the pervert wanted to sleep with me. When I said no, he dumped me for another girl. What an asshole. I stuck around for a few months hoping against hope that he will change his mind and come back to me. I had my heart torn at the early age of fourteen. I promised myself I'll wait till I'm nineteen til I get a serious boyfriend again.
I let him know that I'll wait for him til he made up his mind. The idiot played me for six months. Calling me and getting my hopes high. Telling me that he's committed but still wants me. I hoped against hopes that he can grace me even a single ounce of his attention. I acted like nothing was wrong. Like everything was still the way it was when we were together. I was an idiot who let another idiot took me for a ride. From then on, I learned my mistakes. I never ever tell anyone how much I love them. I never show them how much I care about them cos it hurts to be vulnerable only to be ridiculed.
What brought this on? I remembered almost four years ago, the same idiot caught up with me and asked for a another chance. I looked down at him and laughed at his face. I got over him. For a year and a half, it was hard but I did.
Now, whenever my cousins tease me about the little episode in my life - the time when stupid Nikki went gaga over some guy, I looked at them with a disgusted look on my face and asked, "Who?"
Now, I'm experiencing a slight de ja fucking vu. But I'm wiser. More experienced and more trained to handle this kind of pain. Sure, I'll feel alone and pained but after a few months, I'll look back on this and will be able to laugh my ass off on how I've been duped by this game called love - yet again.
As what Carlo would say, "Don't hate the players hate the game." I'm not saying I want to be a player, but it couldn't hurt to know the rules so I'd know how the game works...
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