New Year's Resolutions

After days of trying to analyze what my New Year's Resolutions are, I finally came up with a list that I hope, I hope, I sincerely hope to attain this year...

1. Be a nicer girl. That means no bitchy comments, no bitch fits.. the whole nine yards.

2. Try to be a good girlfriend to hubby. This includes no nagging, no petty jealousies and enough of the childish antics. I'll be freaking 21 this year and I think I should retire and just forget about my childish demands. He's been good to me so far and I wouldn't want to mess up the relationship that had saved from total heartache. I care about him and that's that.

3. I'll let my mum into my life once again. To let her know what's been going in my life and to let her be my mum again. I always have a good relationship with my mum but I kinda separated from her as soon as 2004 arrived. She let me be me but she came through when I had my major break up. She was the one wiping my tears and telling me it'll be all good. And now that it's been all good, I wouldn't want to shut her out of my life again.

4. No more ditching my classes. I'll try my damnedest to attend all my classes and to pass it all.

5. Ok, this is a shot in the dark but I'll try to lose a few kilos just so that hubby have something to look forward to when I get back. Though he tells me he doesn't care what I look lilke, I still like to look good for my man.

6. I'll join a sporting activity at uni.

7. I'll try my best to get over the fact that Brad and Jen broke up. I still love you guys.

Phew, I think that's enough for now. It'll be a miracle if I'll do even half of that.

Went to Festival with Lem today. I was complaining about a slight tension on my back. After treading my back for a few minutes, he offered to go to the spa and have a whole body massage. On him, of course. We went to a sauna, had our massages and then our facials. It was fun. I couldn't believe that he agreed to go to a spa with me. It's like being with a girlfriend but with a lot of flirting and only more comfortable. I had my nails with him hovering over my back to make sure that the manicurist won't hurt my nails.

The massage was heavenly. We didn't talk the whole time. I had my eyes closed and I could hear him snoring on my right and I had to supress my laugh. He needed the massage than I do. He's been working his ass off since he graduated and he haven't had anytime for himself.

As soon as he got out of the room, his face was pink. Thanks to the heat of the sauna and the relaxing massage, he looked just like Casper. Very cute and adorable. I just had to wrap my arms around his neck and kissed the tip of his nose to show him what a beautiful man he is to me.

We had dinner after the spa. He was so funny over dinner, he was cracking the corniest jokes and I just had to laugh. Not because of his jokes but the fact that he tried to make me laugh. He likes making me laugh. He likes that my dimple on my cheek is showing when I smile and the fact that my eyes literally disappear when I laugh.

He also likes the fact that whenever I go to a mall, I just wear casual clothing. Think about khaki short and tee with flip flops that matches the color of my shirt.

He doesn't like me wearing make-up. The one thing that I need to come to terms with. He likes the natural look, so I don't wear make-up whenever he's around. A small step to being a good girlfriend but a huge leap for The-Ever-Stubborn-Nikki.

It's crazy how I spend every single minute with this guy. It's weird cos I never really wanted to spend a lot of time with my boyfriends before. I always feel so suffocated and not at all happy with too much attention. Once or twice a week was enough for me. I never been the one to beg for attention. But with him, it's different. This must be what I should be feeling. To think about him whenever I'm not with him. The desire to spend time with him is just too overwhelming and I'm glad that he feels the same way.

He visits me in the morning before he leaves for work and visits me at night as soon as he arrives from work. Of course, I've been in my good mood lately that I wait around for him to finish his work in Alabang. One of my best friends joked about how I might not come back to Australia now that I have a boyfriend. I'm not into taking drastic measures.

But I can tell you right now, saying good bye to this man will be tough.