When I blog, I really blog

There are things that I've realised over the weeks. Ready?

Realisation 1: People will come and go as they please.

They leave your life without so much of a "so long" or "Ciao" or basically "I'm already committed to someone else". Then they expect you to just take it and move on with your life and accept their offer of friendship. They never hesitate to hurt you. It sucks.

Then people enter your life in a form of a university student who can't speak a word of English. He would walk around uni looking lost with only his girl buddy with him. Yet, you look at him and feels this insant attraction seeping through you (ahem, Mr. German guy!).

Then once you've decided that you can't get past the language barrier and the Jewish issue, the attraction will resurface again with his friend doing idiotic things for him that can only be known as a way to get my attention (plus the fact that he mumbled, "idiot" to his friend after she did that).

Realisation 2: Pain is gain

Torturing myself to go to the gym for six days a week paid off. I look healthy and I like the person that stares back at me in the mirror. I know I need to lose more but I'm taking it one day at a time. I binge once in a while. How can you not when there are McDonald's every fifty metres?

Realisation 3: It's all about me

This year will be about me. I promised that to myself earlier in the year and I'm sticking to it. I'm taking up recreational activities at uni such as badminton and volleyball. I go to the gym and taken an interest in tennis. I gave up taekwondo. After experiencing sores in my body I realised it isn't for me.

I'm seriously saving for New Zealand. I want to have enough money to go skydiving, bungee jumping, white water rafting and scuba diving. I feel more confident now since I shed a few kilos.

I will be more than ready for my Euro trip next year. I'm so excited!

Realisation 4: Age comes with responsibility

I'm twenty. Will be turning twenty-one in July. I work reasonable hours and study a more than reasonable hours at uni. I kick myself everytime I don't have money but I manage to scrape through the week with ten dollars in my wallet when I'm broke - which is most of the time. I've taken a lot of responsibilities this year. Offered to pay for our power supply and our phone bill. I've renewed my contract for my mobile which ties me up with them for two years with $25.00 to spend at the minimum a month. Then there's my credit card. 'Nuff said.

Bills bills bills. There's too much of them it's not even funny.

Realisation 5: I am a bitch

I can if I want to be. Check previous post. Angry replies were in my inbox this morning. I didn't bother to reply. I have things to worry about than them. Seriously, I've been provoked so it's not my fault. I'll live.

Realisation 6: I am a geek

I stress about Uni all the time. I'm beginning to think it's stress that makes me lose my weight and not the gym. I call friends at uni asking them if they need help with our paper because I just can't sit still. I want to be at uni all the time doing essays and assignments.

I'm sick in the head but I wouldn't want my life to be any other way.