So I brought Emmet back into the picture

Last night was an exchange of endless messages with Emmet.

Good Nite babe sweet dreams. The life coach fee for tonight is a trip to the movies to see V for Vendetta this week, nite cutie.

I was confused as to where everything is going. I just had to ask him or I'd lose my mind.

Can I ask you something? Why are you back? You ignored me for two weeks and now you're back like nothing happened. Just let me know so I won't be surprised. Cos I don't want to be disappointed again.

His reply was; :-(

Followed by..

I made a mistake and I miss you. I won't disappoint you again.

Then I messaged back saying...

Well I just can't pretend like nothing happened.. I just don't want to be disappointed again.. You only message me when you remember me.. I don't want to get hurt.. So tell me why you're back so at least I know...

His reply almost made me gave in. Almost.

I'm sorry I would like to see you again. It sounded like you were under a lot of pressure before and I didn't want you in the position because of me. I'm sorry.

But that wasn't the reason why I broke up with him...

I decided to stop seeing you because you didn't have time for me.. There were times when I really wanted to see you but you never called and that really hurt me.. Then you stopped messaging altogether and it hurt me ever more... I just can't be treated that way.. I want start seeing you again too but I just don't want to be disappointed.

There I said it. That was the reason we broke up and I won't sugar coat it for him.

I will always have time for you and I will not disappoint you, I swear.

I didn't know what to say. So I left it at that.

I don't know if I should believe him though. I want to give it another chance but I'm too scared that I won't be able to survive a free fall.

Hay, I don't know..