Anxiety, my new best friend

I've been doubling over with doubts. Over Emmet.

No, he hasn't given me anything to worry about. But it's my imagination that's betraying me.

Everytime, I always think of something really awful that he would do to me.

Like if whether he's cheating or not.

Or if he's serious or not.

Or if I'm just a pastime or not.

Don't worry too much, Iris said. Yeah yeah, I know. But I couldn't help it.

Emmet's not the type to cheat. He's pretty decent, she added.

I know that too. But I guess it takes a lot for me to trust someone again.

The fact that I said yes to this says alot. Trust me. A lot.

I didn't run away and I took the plunge.

I know I can't survive a free fall but I thought, Hey I already had my heart trampled once, I can do it..

I know it's a bit sick to actually want to get your heart broken. It's not like I want to, just that when the situation arise, I think I can manage it.

But I can't fully open up to this guy. I like him and I have strong feelings for him.

I'm 100% sure about that.

But I'm scared to death that maybe when I do decide to let him, he might just walk away.