This is a post of a very confused little blogger

Ever felt like you're swimming through an oatmeal? Like no matter how you want to get away you just get sucked back in?

Or perhaps, ever felt your self-esteem going on an ultimate low you start to think what your boyfriend saw in you.

It's just hormonal thing, one of my friends said.

Maybe it is. But then again maybe it's not.

Or I'm going through a really early mid-life crisis.

Or I'm experiencing split personality disorder. Irregardless of what it is, I can't go on feeling this way. Like I always have butterflies in my stomach.

I like the first-date jitters and the occasional kilig but this isn't what I bargained for.

Definitely not a long-term heartache and confusion.