Emmet and I are growing up

Usually I would complain about not seeing my boyfriend everyday. I would make him choose between me and his career.

Or between something really important to him or me. Something ridiculously stupid.

But now, I have learned to compromise. I bite my tongue when I'm on the verge of complaining about not seeing my boyfriend often.

It's difficult now because he started a new job and I only get to see him twice a week.

Compared to seeing him everyday before.

Eating lunch together, watching a movie twice a week, going for long drives on my days off, picking me up at night after work.

Now, it's like we need to actually make an effort to see each other. He works Monday-Friday.

I work Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday. On my days off, I go to uni. And on his days off, I am at work.

The only time we see each other is when we go to church on Sunday nights followed by a movie straight after Church.

Or usually, when we really want to see each other, we would just go for a quick drive around town and just catch up on everything. About his work, my work, my uni, his training.

It's hard, I tell you.

I need to find another outlet to let him know I'm thinking about him.

You're ugly hehehe...

Ain't I sweet? Hehehe

I call him panget and he calls me Pang Pang. I miss him so much it makes me cry when I go home and try calling him at eleven o'clock and his phone is off because he has to get up early at six o'clock the next day.

Sometimes I think of giving up because I always think, I'm with someone but I feel alone.

But then I look at him. At his smile.

And I realise it's worth it.