I just want to tear her eyes out

It's been ages since I've spoken to my ex from back home.

It's crazy but I never really got around to thinking about him.

Everybody in Manila thinks we'll still get back together. My grandmother holds a silent torch for him to be the father of my kids.

But Sharon is the ultimate loyal fan of my ex.

And just the fact that she still loves him for me just wants me to tear her eyes out and knock the bitch out.

Sure, I respect what you have with your new boyfriend but it's still him all the way, something tells me you'll still end up with him, she said.

Is that right, well keep dreaming cos that ain't going to happen, I replied. She was lucky I was thousands of miles away from her otherwise I would've done some serious damage to her pretty face.

How can you move on from someone [not that I need to move on cos I already have] if people around you, people you love and whose opinion matters so much to you keep bringing you down and telling you that you won't be able to move on cos you're meant to be together in the first place?

Sure, a year ago I would've welcomed the idea of us getting back together. But after all these, I can't see myself being in a relationship with someone who made me cry so much. I think I loved him too much I didn't leave anything for myself.

So when the time came for me to let go, it almost killed me.

But I'm in a happy place right now. I have a good job, I'm doing really well at Uni and I have Emmet who brightens up my day each and every single day.

There are things that I'm thankful for and the above are just some of them.

I doubt that to be honest, I said to my cousin.

Fine, but I'll give it a year, if you're not back together before your 23rd birthday I'll let it go, she replied.

Well, better let go cos it just won't happen, I snapped back.

And this time, I actually mean it.