Happy New Year!!

What do you know.. Another year had passed and yet I'm still here. Alive and kicking and annoying the hell out of my friends.

There are stuff that I wished I didn't do last year. There are decisions that I wished I didn't make. Most especially there are people that I wished I didn't meet.

I started 2007 with optimism. I celebrated New Year with Emmet. Ended up walking barefoot from my friend's apartment to Emmet's place.

I celebrated my first anniversary with Emmet. The relationship was so full of happiness. It made me realise it was the real thing.

February had me celebrating my first V-day with Emmet. It was also my first anniversary with working for my old company.

March and April had me focusing on university and my relationship with Emmet.

But then May came and shattered all hopes of love and future with my boyfriend. I lived on a break up diet of diet coke and cigarettes for three weeks. I looked like Christian Bale from The Machinist.

But then Emmet came back and my life was good again.

June had me bouncing up and down for joy because the love of my life is back.

July had me cursing, crying and kicking over my toothache. Around the same time as my 23rd birthday.

August had me changing jobs. I moved up to a higher position working with ungrateful people. Corporate vampires that suck the blood out of you until you're no longer needed.

September - November had me slave away. I felt like an underpaid Filipino child worker that was being taken advantage of.

Working hellish hours for ten straight days. I lived and breathed my work.

Of course because of my new found -ism. Workaholism, my relationship suffered. A great deal.

December had me leaving Emmet for the nth time. It wasn't for good. Just til I sort my stuff out and determine what it is that I really want.

Hence the big question; WHAT DO I WANT?

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So to sum it up, my 2007 was my work year. Where I developed a new addiction - work. Put my relationship with Emmet in the back seat and focused on getting promoted.

Doing everything I could possibly think of to get ahead. Even if it meant shutting Emmet down. I had been selfish. I'd go for days not calling him but I crack the shits big time when I call and he doesn't pick up.

It makes me sick thinking about how immature and selfish I became. The breather was definitely what we needed.

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So now that 2008 is here what do I have planned?

I want to get promoted.

I want to have a salary review and hopefully get a bigger (still small, though) paycheck.

I want to finally get back to Uni full time. Not just showing up in classes when I feel like it. I want to be totally committed to studying this year.

I want to go overseas. Anywhere as long as I live the country even for just a few days. I want to get the hell out of this country for awhile. Just jump on a plane and take me somewhere. Anywhere.

I want to lose ten kilos. I will go to the gym once a week and work up a sweat. It aches me to see that the gym is taking money from my account every fortnight and I only go at once a month - if that!

I want to cut back on smoking. My cousin, Michael smokes for one week and quits the next week. But work makes me want to have a cigarette permanently glued to my mouth. It's disgusting I know.

I want to see my dad. I want him to come to Australia and see how I live. Where I work, my boyfriend, my life!

I want to be debt free this year. I owe a lot of money and I want to swipe my debt records clean.

I can't realistically see myself moving out but it's something I want to achieve this year.

I want to not have a major fight with Emmet this year. No pseudo break up. We'll work hard to keep us in tact.

I know it's a whole lot of wants. But I want to stick to it this year.

Last year my resolutions went straight to the toilet.