It's just going around in circles

Again, I'm lost and confused. I don't know what to do.

I don't know if I did the right thing.

Once again, 80% of me knows that this is what I want. That it's for the best.

That long-term I did the right thing.

But a tiny part of me is scared of what will happen. That maybe I should just toughen up and not give up altogether.

That it'll change if I give it more time.

But gut feeling told me it won't change.

SO I didn't fake it. Didn't prolong it.

I knew I have to do it.

I did it.

It hurts now but the pain will go away eventually.

I know it will.