I'm scaring myself

I woke up cranky today. I had a dream about my ex-boyfriend. I'm not the one to get into details so let your imagination run away from you. It bothers me that I still think about him often. I ought to hate him with what he put me through. But I don't. It's probably because one of my friends is happy with a possible kilig person.

Anyway, I was thinking about him for a whole day today. Am upset with myself that he gets to me - still. Just when I've avoided getting in contact with him for a full month now - BAM! I dream about him and couldn't get him out of my mind for a whole freaking day.

Was going crazy this morning. Wanted to do something to get my mind off... things. Thank God for Dimples, I managed to get out of the house. Had coffee at Surfers and just talked about her day - spent the morning with this guy she's obsessing about. It helped me. The more she talks about this guy the more I like him. He makes my friend happy. No qualms on that.

Went to Harbour Town for kebabs. Teased Bernie with this Indian guy who works at the Kebab place. Told her he was totally checking her out. Told the same thing to me. Came up with the conclusion that he just likes Asian girls. Whatever...

Suddenly decided to watch Constantine. Kudos to Keanu Reeves, I managed to put my worries aside for a good two hours. He is so hot. Fallen in love with him in Something's Gotta Give. Always thought he's gorgeous. Been justified tonight - yet again.

It was a good night. Amazing Race was on, was mortified that one of the guy attacked (if you call pushing her cause he was pissed off) his partner just cause she brought the bag that he left trying to beat the other couple for first place.

Extreme Makeover was on, hooted with laughter cause the woman wanted to not look ugly but then turned out to look like Sharon Osbourne.

Read PDL, this Christian book that my cousin gave me for Christmas. It's meant to make you realize what your purpose in life is. So far so good. I'm on my third chapter. Thirty-seven more to go. You commit to it by reading one chapter a day. Began to realize things that I never really realized before. Then thought that maybe thinking about my ex today is a challenge I have to overcome. I know that there will be times that he would just pop in my mind. I won't be able to stop that from happening. But it's a consolation that I can now realize that. And that I don't look at that as an opportunity to get in contact with him. But as a test.

Opened my email - got one from him. Nothing special, just a note to just click on the link below so the sender can be updated with his/her address book at Ringo. It's an auto-reply or whatever. Decided to ignore it. Got my answer.. So that's why.

Always known that I'm Psychic.

Lesson for the day: Do not doubt yourself. Never. Ever.