Paranoia is creeping in

Was checking friendster at B's laptop when I saw a friend invite. Someone who is closely related to my past relationship. A relationship I so wanted to work but didn't.

Naturally, that freaked me out. Checked the left side of the screen to see how we're connected so far. Me=Past Relationship=Him. That's weird. I can't remember being connected to my past relationship. I've taken him out of my life ages ago. I lifted him right out as soon as I decided it's over. It still hurts I admit but not that much. I'll live.

B pointed that it was her homepage I was looking at and not mine. Was so relieved I almost cried. Wouldn't know what to do if this guy would invite me to be his friend. I hate dramas, I think I already mentioned that.

Was relieved. Really relieved.

Can so relate with Desperate Housewives. Not in a manner of being desperate but with the quote that says "Sometimes when there's no hero to save you, just have to save yourself." Can so relate.

I think the stress is creeping up on me. Finals are coming up. I'm doing ok with most of my subjects except Eco which is a bit sad since it's my second go at it.

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Dramas I hate

But what's worse is being helpless. Helpless in a manner of not knocking some sense out of someone who is very dear to me. That person is heading for trouble and I just don't think I'll be there for that person.

I can't be there if you won't let me. Please let me.

I know there are some things I've done that I'm not really proud of. I've done the same thing that's why I'm telling you, it's not worth it.

NOT.