Even when he's at work


He knows it when I need someone to talk to.

Was chatting with Mark this afternoon. I didn't have to say anything - just by looking at my status on MSN told him everything he needed to know. He asked me what's up my butt.

I told him. I told him how I've been feeling really low and really fragile right now I can't even think straight. I told him how I feel like I've been on an emotional roller-coaster and the fucked up thing is that I don't want to get off. It's like I like doing it to myself. Getting myself involved in sticky situations.

Mark called me straight away. I asked him if he'll get in trouble for calling me during business hours.

Fuck it, they can fire my sorry ass.. I don't care, he said.

Aww... Don't you just love the man??

I told him everything that happened since he left for Sydney. I miss him terribly. I wish he'd come back. I really do.

Please come home, I begged.

Don't make this hard for me, I'm already struggling as it is, he said.

I know, I'm sorry. I know things with his fiance are hard right now. He wanted to move out. See if he'll miss her before they get married in September. I was there when everything was in shits between him and his fiance.

He's here now that I'm feeling like shit with my significant other. It's weird how we promised each other that we'll always know what's going on with each other's lives but I never really thought we'd hang on to that promise.

I just hope his fiance knows what a great man she's marrying.

Is it because things with you and R are sticky right now that's why you're hanging onto Mark?

I don't think I'm hanging onto Mark. He's such a great person. I can't even begin to describe what he is to me. He's more than a friend to me. I'm his girl he said. [Nobody treats my girl that way]

Fuck.

I just hope he comes back to take my boo boos away. I need someone to take my boo boos away and I think Mark is it.

He is it.