Sometimes you just have to shut up

Like when you see a really repulsive photo.

Or just look away just so you won't laugh at someone's face.

Or bite your lip to keep from saying something really nasty.

I've learned that you have to watch what comes out of your mouth.

Words kill. Or something to that effect.

I was having a webcam chat with R, my ex-boyfriend when he asked me what I think of him now - physically, he meant.

I looked at his face for a long while, he was still alright looking. Cute, actually. Chinese-ish, tall, nothing changed. But maybe, I just wasn't attracted to him anymore because my preference in men changed. I go for brunettes now, over 6 feet tall with nice body - like what Johnson is, bless him.

So I told him what I thought.

You look alright, I said.

You'd think that would be alright for the guy. He started bitching. I mean, bitching.

Telling me that I've changed.

WTF?

Where the hell did that come from?

Just cause I don't find him attractive doesn't mean I've changed.

Crazy man.

I have to tell him that I still think he was cute but I'm not attracted to him anymore.

For one thing, I'm sort of seeing someone that kinda prevented me from perving on other guys.

Second thing, I like western guys better. They're confident and they don't play around. They know what they want and they go after it.

Third, why the F would you care if I'm not attracted to you, aren't you like, married?

Guys are so polygamous it's not even funny.

They need to have reserves. Like a spare tire. A back up. A contingency plan.

It's not fair sometimes.

But then you realise, if guys can have contingency plan, why can't we?

If they can have a booty call, why can't we?

If the can be polygamous, why can't we?

If they can fuck around, why can't we?

Don't hate the player, hate the game, Bad Boys II said.

All is fair in love and war.

I'm getting rid of Johnson soon. His used-by date is coming. I don't need a fresh meat. I just need a break.

I'm not a veteran, but I'm no rookie.