First of the Month

Fabio messaged me asking me out on a date.

I told him I wasn't up for it.

The fist time he sent me a picture of himself, it worked.

I went out with him and we had a great time.

This time around however, I had to turn him down even if he sent me a really cute photo of himself. Cos I do know it was his attempt to get me to say yes [I mean, how shallow does he think I am?].

I swear, MMS messages give me the headaches.

I may find him attractive - so, so attractive but there's no way I'll get tricked into going out with him.

I just hope there are still decent guys left in the world when I'm ready

Not Mr-Don't-Jinx-It. He's great.

Too great.

He's just too focused. Everyday, he gets up at 5am to go for a run before training. He then trains from 9-5 and goes to the gym for two hours.

He's that committed to martial arts that he's going over to Japan in April and at the end of the year.

Then he takes me out for a movie at 9pm which finishes at 11pm.

We then go to his house for a bit of R&R and I don't leave til 1am.

I feel sorry for him. He doesn't have much time but he's making time.

I think I've snagged a really good one but I should leave him alone.

Because I don't deserve a good one just yet. Some other girl can have him and will make him happy.

I can't stand the fact that he's giving me all these attention. I don't deserve it.

I don't deserve him. I'm too messed up to deserve him.