When I said I'm not going to be that girl, I did not expect this.

I did say I'm not going to be that girl, but what if it was him who wanted to catch up?

What if it was him who wanted to talk about what went wrong in the relationship?

I was online on Thursday night when he asked me if I wanted to go dor a drive. Since I didn't have anything to do, and since I wanted to see for myself if I was over him or not, I agreed to pick him up in his house and to go for a drive.

As soon as he got in my car, we started teasing each other, the way we did before. We talked about what happened to us in the past few weeks that we didn't see each other.

Then I dropped him off.

I just want to tell you something before you go, he said.

What, I asked. I was scared of what he was going to say.

The reason why I didn't call you after we split up is because I didn't want to put any pressure on you, I respect every decision that you make and I don't want to confuse you any longer. I'm not going to be the bad guy, he explained.

I told him it was ok. That I was over it.

He frowned when I said I was over it.

So I asked him why.

Because I want to see you again, he said.

That I did not expect.

He then took my hand and started playing with it.

I pulled it away and asked him to get out of my car. Nicely, though.

What? No bear hugs, he asked.

So I got out of the car and he gave me multiple bear hugs.

I heard him heaved a sigh.

Don't think about it, I said referring to what's going with us again.

I try not to think about it. Cos when I do it hurts, he said.

I looked up to have a look at his face and he leaned over to kiss me. It wasn't a romantic kiss, just a peck on the lips.

And I didn't feel anything.

But the bear hugs took my breath away.

And his messages after I got home.

Sweet dreams Nikki, have a super fun morning, nite at work tomorrow and I'm so happy to see your cute smile again even tho you hit me a few times lol ouch. Ps I'm buying the drinks tomorrow night. Good night cranky sweet dreams oxo.

And...

I really missed you teasing me the way you do and I just want to give you a big bear hug and make everything alright oxo. Adam SANDLER

I call him Adam Sandler because his hair is shaved and his head is egg-shaped - like Adam Sandler's.

My friends say that when he said that he wanted to see me again, it meant that he just wanted to physically see me.

But Keegan and my Uncle said that he might want to get back together.

But the question is, do you, Uncle asked.

It's a simple question that I just don't have an answer for.