Dum dee Dum

This morning, as I was walking towards work, I came across Luca, this unbelievably cute concierge from the hotel.

He's drop-dead gorgeous and he doesn't know it.

And he calls me babe everytime he sees me. But then again, he calls everyone babe so I don't really feel extra special.

The funny thing is, usually when I see someone who is as gorgeous as Luca. I turn on my flirt-mode and flirt away like there's no tomorrow.

But as I saw him wave at me and smile asking me to come over for a chat as I was a full hour early for work, I waved back, smiled back and continued walking.

As I was getting changed in the locker area, it dawned on me. I no longer feel the need to flirt with other guys to feel good about myself. When I lost weight, I promised myself I will get every guy to notice me. I know it sounds mean but I knew it would do wonders on my self-esteem and after breaking up with my ex-boyfriend, I needed my self-esteem back.. Big time.

Anyway, I realised that I don't need anyone checking me out. That's not what I want anymore. It doesn't bother me if guys don't find me attractive or if there are much more interesting and prettier girls than me.

I don't need that anymore. Because now I have Emmet.

Who gives me back my self-esteem, my confidence and my love to live my life just the way I want it.

He gives it all back to me. Every single day.

Every single text message he sends; hi panget. I was just wondering if you want to do something fun today. whatever babe, i just want to hang out with you..

Or every single time he would call me and greets me with; hello panget with a very sexy voice.

Every single thing he does are doing wonders for my self-esteem.

I don't need a Luca for me to feel good. I got me an Emmet.

And that is more than enough.