It's like what they say

When everything is going really well, it just basically mean it's just a calm before the storm.

I know I shouldn't say this. But when I said that I was being anxious with my relationship with Emmet. I know I shouldn't ignore it.

We're still ok. I don't think I'll break up with him but at the same time, I'm not sure if we're there there. I'm a bit confused with my relationship with Emmet. In term of, ahem being affecionate towards each other.

He's just too damn closed off. His antics are making think twice on whether he's attracted to me or not.

Or if he sees me as just a friend or something more.

Or if he's more attracted to someone else than to me.

Or.. I'm thinking too much. But it's not coming out of nowhere.

Trust me.

I like him and he doesn't want to break up with me.

I told him tonight that I'd like to speak to him tomorrow to talk about us. I want to talk to him and tell him what's bothering me.

It's not a great test but if I wouldn't be able to talk to him about these kinds of things then he'd prolly not worth it.

And I so want him to be worth it. I want this to be worth it.