I'm not ok, you're not ok, we're not ok

But that's ok.

I have this feeling that if I decide to talk to Emmet about what's bothering me that's what he's going to say.

It has come to a point where I want to break up with him - again. But for real this time. No going back and I'll be moving on.

I feel terrible for doing this but what can I do? I need to do this for myself otherwise I'll be miserable.

I don't want to be with someone who doesn't have any time for me. And if he does, all we do is stupid stuff.

I need to be with someone who will be able to bring out the best in me. Not keep me guessing whether I'm good enough for him or whether he's cheating on me or whether I'm just a pastime.

All these demons started coming out all of a sudden. It's scary.

From confident, happy and vibrant girlfriend to a deflated self-esteem, insecure soon to be ex-girlfriend.

What a turnaround huh?