I'm compensating for my lack of blogging

Lately, I've been neglecting blogging.

But blogging is not the only thing I've been neglecting.

I don't hang out with my friends anymore. The only person I get to see these days is Iris and it's only because we go to the same university and we have the same timetable.

I only get to hang out and go clubbing when my colleagues and I decide to go for a few drinks after work.

We don't even go out til eleven-thirty at night.

I know there's no excuse with my lack of enthusiasm in blogging these days. But trust me, you won't envy my life right now.

I only sleep for a grand total of six hours a day and I do a minimum of ten hours a day at work.

I hardly ever get to see my boyfriend and that had put a strain on my relationship with him.

I haven't had enough time to spend with my family. Mum has been begging me to take it easy for a few weeks. To use up my annual leave and just veg out for a month or so.

I don't go out as often as I'd like to.

I'd rather catch a movie than go in a crazy, noisy club.

I miss Emmet so much. I don't know how to tell him that I miss him without being a clingy person. I'm scared of having to show my emotions still.

Everythinhg is so messed up right now. I don't know what to do. I honestly don't know what I should do and I can't ask anyone.

I don't want to talk about this to anyone because I feel that if I talk about it, it'll come true and THEN I have to deal with it.

I'm not ready to deal with it. Not yet.

Back to what I was talking about, I am a walking exhaustion. I bring the people around me down because I look like a zombie. I have dark bags under my eyes and I yawn twenty thousand times a day - I think.

But the funny thing is, I feel alive when I'm at work. I feel useful and needed.

I love it. I'm not an alcoholic. I think somehow, in some level, I enjoy what I do.

It maybe physically hard but I've made some pretty awesome friends and I'm kissing some sersious asses at work.

I'll put extra effort to keep my blog updated. I promise.