I guess it is pretty obvious that I like to change my mind

In a span of one week, I changed my mind about my job.

I'm itching for a new job then I heart my job now, I can't stand it.

It's because we have a new supervisor at work and she's really strict. Like unreasonable strict.

Like sarcastic strict that you just want to rip her head off and let your dog chew it only you care so much about your dog to be feeding it shit.

Yep. That's how horrible she is. I do not like her at all.

I don't think anybody does actually.

But life must go on. We do our jobs and just do it. No fun and no laughing. What the fuck??

Oh well. What else can you do right?


Sometimes I find myself dreaming

About being two hours late for work. And my boss calling me nonstop and I will have nine missed calls on my phone and I don't even answer them

Or going on a roller coaster and just going through it. Not really getting scared. Just getting on it and them jumping off.

It's weird.

Or I'll have this really bad dream. In my dream, I know I'm fucked. That the situation I'm in is really bad and there's nothing I can do about it.

Then the Me in my dream [get it?] tells me that it's only a dream [lost yet?]. So I ease up and then I move on to having a different dream.

My mind works overtime. I dream almost on a daily basis.

No wonder I get stressed out. Irregardless whether I'm awake or asleep, I always have somethingn on my mind.


I should stop stressing out

Ok, just so you all know. I love Emmet.

I love him to death and I don't want anyone thinking otherwise.

I am in love with him and that's how it's going to be for a very long time..

No amount of coaxing from my ex will make me forget about what I have with Emmet right now. I am lucky to have him and sure he does have his hang ups and insecurities but I'm working on it.

I don't mind putting in an extra effort because I know in the end it'll be worth it.

I love him and that's that.