Once again, I'm all alone.

Not by choice though.

It hurts because I play by the rules. But I guess it really is true. Nice girls do finish last. =(

But what can you do, right? Either you sulk and hibernate for the next couple of years or pick up the pieces and move on.

I had high hopes with my relationship with him. I was happy and in love. I did what I can do to make him happy and to make it work out. But I guess it wasn't enough.

That certainly didn't stop him from breaking my heart. =(

I promise myself I wouldn't cry over him. I just refuse to shed a tear. I'll hate myself if I cry over him. He's not worth it and I know I'm better off.

Come to think of it, I was just so blinded by love to stop for a moment and think that he's not right for me at all.

I need an affectionate person. The one who would constantly hold my hand, someone who tells me he loves me [over and over again], someone who would plant a kiss on my cheek just because he couldn't keep his hands off me.

Over the months that I've been with him I've been with holding my feelings. I'm a true person. I am showy with my affections and I don't care if I'm all over the person, the world shouldn't care. It's meant to be love.

But I guess I'm way too boring for him. I never tickle his fancy and I guess this is the way it should end.

I'm not a fan of cliches but I know everything happens for a reason and I'm not an angry person. That's one thing I hate about myself. I'm not a fan of confrontations. I just say yes and bottle everything up inside. That's why people walk all over me and take advantage.

I have this annoying urge to please people without asking anything in return. I was there for him hand and foot. I was at his beck and call and this is what happened.

Meh. Ok, I may be in a bad place right now, but I know tomorrow will be better than today.

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I know it sounds cheesy but I took him out of my myspace friends list. Also, I took out his number from my phone book and all the photos from my computer and from my phone. The best way to eradicate him completely is to erase him from my life.

I'm quitting cold turkey.