You know what?

As I was looking through friendster, I realised, almost all my friends are married with kids.

I was talking to one of my good friends in Manila and she even told me that almost half the people in our college days are already married.

She's engaged and pregnant. As well.

It got me thinking. Really thinking.

Even my relatives in Manila are surprised that I'm not in a stable relationship. Stable enough to think about marriage and the possibility of having children with this guy.

Maybe I'm missing out, I thought.

Maybe, I need to find someone who wants the same things as I do.

You know, marriage and kids and stuff.

But then I think about my life, how I manage to buy everything I could possibly want.

Without answering to anyone in particular. By living my life day by day, and with a man beside me who wants nothing more but to keep me happy.

I may not have the marriage and kids and stuff.

But I have the next best thing.

I have the whole of Emmet, our jobs, our education and each other.

That's more than enough for now.

In the future maybe we'll think about marriage and kids and stuff, but not right now.

Because what we have right now is so great I don't think it's fair to push our luck.

We have our ups and down, but I love him.

Maybe not enough to tell the world that I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with him, but I love him.

I'm just waiting for you to break up with me, I said.

Well, you better grab a chair and start reading a book, cos it'll be a long while before that happens, he replied.

I know things are a bit iffy at the moment because of his new work and the stress of juggling everything at once but I want to make it work.

Because to me, he's worth it.

Really worth it.