Makeover

Yeah, yeah. I've gone a little overboard. I went back to liking pink and bright colours again. I feel like I need to do something productive. I feel restless and miserable. I feel like something's missing so I went ahead and do something to shake off the feeling.. But somehow, I still feel like I need to do something for myself.

Hmm... Let's see..

Do something active? Check. Been going back to working out everyday. Almost close to losing the three kilos I vowed to get rid of before my 21st.

Do something social? Check. Have been going out with friends nonstop. Barhopping, playing pool with girlfriends and pals at uni. Going for drinks. The works. Haven't had the time to blog about what's been going on everytime we hit clubs.

Have some alone time? Check. Been spending a lot of time by myself as well. Been catching up on my reading - finally finished the Da Vinci Code. It took me a month. Well, I got distracted but I finally finished it. Phew. I've watched reruns of Friends over and over. Watched all my fave series on TV. EVERYTHING.

Spend time with Mum? Check. She's everywhere. In the morning, she's there. Before I leave the house, she's there. I get home, she's there. Before I go to sleep, she's there.

Get in contact with my friends in Manila? Check. Been updated with what's going on with one of my best friends and as of now, I think they're still trying to figure out what to do.

Things are obviously mostly covered. How come I still feel useless? I'm doing all these different things but somehow I still don't think I'm moving forward.

I'm having one of them days.

I feel like I'm useless. I wake up in the morning, I take a shower, go to uni to study, meet up with friends, have a cup of coffee, go to the gym and head back home. On other days, instead of eight hours at uni, I work.

I enjoy my life but I feel like I've been enjoying too much. I don't think I'm taking my life's direction seriously. I still don't even know what I freaking wana do with my freaking life.

Must seriously think life plans.