What's a better way to distract yourself?

Paint your room, of course.

My beige coloured wall is now purplish pink.

It's awesome how changing the colour of the room you sleep in can make you happy and proud.

Mind you, I'm painting it myself.

Song for you?

Ok, so I know we've been friends for too long. Heck, I don't even know if you read my blog or if you even know about it. But our conversation left me a little too fragile.

Remember last month when I had If by chance you change your mind you know I will not let you down as my status at YM? And you asked me out of the blue whom it was for? And I told you it was one of the songs that reminds of someone? And you asked me what song I have for you? And I hadn't replied straight away? And I thought and thought but no song came to mind?

A month later I was still thinking.

Well, the thinking is over. Cause I finally found the right song for you. It may be upbeat. It may be to club-ish. But definitely it suits you.

Now you've been holding me down
For such a long time now
From back then
To now in my story
Straight from the hood
You've always been there for me
And ya had my back
Back when everybody said
I wasn't anything
It was you who had me holdin' on
No matter what was goin' on
So whatever ya need I got you

You dont know how much you mean to me
Whenever your down you know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation, boy I'm gon' hold you down

I know it's the kind of song you dance to in clubs but the words describe our friendship.

It really really does.

And I hope that whatever it is that you decide will make you happy.

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In. A. Relationship.

My cousin has In A Relationship status on his friendster account. I still have to confirm. But who could it be? He hasn't mentioned anything to me since we last talked. A couple of days ago. Not even a single name-dropping occured. I asked him what's new and he said not much. So how could it be?

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In my last entry, I talked about the things that I should be grateful for. At the top of my head, I'm grateful for:

Having a wonderful mum whom I can shoot the breeze with all the time.

Having a really good opportunity to create a bright future for myself.

Not having to beg for food and for money.

Having to realise my strengths and weaknesses.

Learning how to look on the bright side instead of wingeing.

Being surrounded by people who love and support me.

I'm grateful grateful grateful.

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Final exams are coming up.

Fuck, I'm scared. Will I pass?

I fucking hope so.