R & R

I swear, the man is always in my mind it's not even funny. How can you be so attached with someone and yet feel this incredible anger everytime you think about what he's done to you?

Come over today, he said.

I swear, he has got no idea what he did on Monday night. Matty did. I did. He didn't.

Idiot.

But I still can't not think of him. I hate this. We're not even together. Officially, we're not together. It gives me the shits the he's given me the responsibility to think about stuff - whether I want to be with him or not. It's not just me who should decide, him too.

I hate the fact that he knows how to push my buttons. Trust me, he does.

I hate the fact that he doesn't let me drive his car - it's too precious and he doesn't trust me driving.

I hate the fact that he doesn't like me drinking too much.

I hate the fact that he doesn't like me going to the gym too much.

I hate the fact that he doesn't like me smoking too much.

I hate the fact that he messages me every single hour of the day.

I hate the fact that he breathes down my neck.

I hate the fact that he makes sure I eat my meals.

I hate. I hate. I hate.

But somehow I can't help but feel loved everytime he pushes one of my buttons.


How fast is five weeks???

I remember having Five Weeks, Baby as my status everytime I was online. People messaging me telling me how lucky I am that I have five weeks of holidays.

It's gone quick. I realised I go back to Uni on Monday. I get to see Frodo and Tom on Monday.
I'll meet with J on Monday. I will hang out with Jono on Monday.

I get to see Norsk on Monday.

Can't wait.


Fuck tax

Worked out my tax this year and I'm only getting about two hundred bucks. Fuck that. I hate it. I suppose it's better than nothing but I'm really bummed that I don't get much.

Not. A. Good. Day.

Why? Rick pissed me off by calling me early in the morning bugging me to come over at his house to hang out.

As. If.

I'm still mad at him.

I'm so broke cos I haven't been working.

Mum's been on my back about the bills that I have to pay this month - thanks, mum.

My mobile phone bill came and yep, over two hundred dollars worth of calls.

I need to be financially stable again.

Not counting my credit card balance....