This is the soundtrack of my life

Bigang

Tryna forget about it

Ordinary things

Typical

Predictable Baby

I knew the end before we started

You got me feeling like I owe you something

Cos you were there in times when I had nothing

But you threw it all away

With the shady things you do

Baby please forgive me

For what I'm bout say

And what I'm bout to do

I can't take no moreI know you aint bein true

Aint got no love for youYou've been cheating and telling me lies

You've been creeping while I'm sleepin at night

Youve been chasing every girl in sight

You've been messin round and no I'm down, It's over now

You've been cheating and telling me lies

You've been creeping while I'm sleepin at night

Youve been chasing every girl in sight

You've been messin round and no I'm down, It's over now

You've been cheating and telling me lies

You've been creeping while I'm sleepin at night

Youve been chasing every girl in sight

You've been messin round and no I'm down, It's over now

I aint owned by intuitionA

nd blessed heart failed our suspision

But you were just the one who was puttin it in my face

Can't deny i'd let you hurt me

I think I'll be ok soon. Not yet, but I'll be over it.

It seems that all my life, I always get cheated on. Am I that boring?

Maybe I should be bisexual or a swinger or a slut for guys to take me seriously.

But it's not in my heart to be like those mentioned above. I am me. Take it or leave it.

I'll pick up the pieces and move on.

That's what I always do anyway. Move on from all the bad things that had happened.

Well, it is a nightmare. I can't wait to wake up.

I told my parents about it and they were not happy.

Dad was spewing and Mum was just very disappointed.

Of course, there was the whole you-deserve-so-much-more/better speech.

And the Everything happens for a reason advice.

It felt good. People had been offering condolences because everyone knew how much I loved that man.

No more pang pang. No more panget.

It's sad because I actually saw a future with him. It was vague but I thought we would get through it. I was proud of him.

I never thought less of him and I always thought to myself, I will always love this man.

I still love him. Honestly, it won't go away overnight. Especially after everything was sweet and tops.

But that's what broke my heart. Everything was sweet and tops then this happened.

Are there anymore honest guys out there?

I'm not going to jump into another relationship so soon after one just ended miserably. But I'm going to be open with guys taking me out on dates.

It's about time I get pampered and to be treated like a princess. I sacrificed a lot for that man.

Worked my whole life around his timetable. I guess it's safe to say it was a mistake to do that.

Because everything I did, all the effort I did were unnoticed.

So sad. I would've sacrificed a whole lot more. I'm like that when I'm in love. Give everything I got til I have nothing left for myself.

I'm a giver. Always had been, always will.

I guess all I have to do is wait. Waiting for the right person to come along and make everything ok.

To put back all the pieces. To make me believe that what happened with my ex was a sign that I'm meant to be wtih Mr. Right [Mr. Right.. Ugh, so cheesy..].

But yeah, I want the pain to stop.


In other news

Tim Tam came around last night. I was chatting with him when I just burst into tears. I asked him if he could come over so I can get a hug from him and he did.

He came over at 11:30pm to give me a hug. To make sure I was ok and to make me feel better.

I have the utmost respect for that guy. Nothing will ever taint the respect that I have for him.

I love him for being there for me. We had our ups and downs. Our misunderstandings and our share of hook ups but by the end of the day, I think the closest thing that we could ever be is just good mates.

And knowing that he will be there for me anytime I need a friend, someone to talk to, a shoulder to cry on or a human warmth to hug with is enough for me to realise that life is still kind to me.