Some things I need to blabber about

Is it wrong to miss an "ex"?

Or does it make me unfaithful even by thinking about an ex?

Or if I have a crush from work - and I find myself staring at him because he just to damn cute, does that make me unfaithful?

I'm in a monogamous relationship with Emmet and I want to keep it that way, but lately, I started missing my ex. Like really missing him. Thinking about how we were - how much fun we used to have ie how we always laugh at stupid things just do nothing together.

Then there's this guy at work that I'm starting to crush on. I'm ridiculously attracted to him. Everytime I go to work, I look forward to working with him because we just have a ball together.

I never deny the fact that I have a boyfriend - I'm not evil. He knows I have a boyfriend and I'm always very vocal about my feelings for Emmet. Everyone knows how much I treasure my relationship with him.

I'm not doing anything wrong. I window shop but I never, ever try on the merchandise. Let alone buy it and take it home with me.

So why do I feel oh so guilty??