It's been awhile

Posted at 18 Oct

I'm a terrible daughter.

I haven't seen my dad for over three years.

That's a long time. He's over in Canada and I'm living in Australia.

We I can't find the time to go to Manila for a visit. Work's been taking up most of my time and I'm almost done with my degree.

Almost.

But lately, Dad's been making an extra effort to call me and to actually have a conversation with me.

But I've just been distant lately. Like I've been really busy with work that I don't really give a damn about anything else.

I feel terrible for dodging his calls but I really do not want to listen to him talk about his family in Canada.

His family - that I'm not a part of.

I feel bad for not talking to him and I know I should. I just couldn't bear to hear it.

I can't.

I maybe burning to hell for even thinking this but what else can I do?