Self-Love 💜

I'm having a selfie moment! 💜

#NonicaArt and #Nonica2016 is happening...

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Yes, I'm not only a blogger

I'm also into art.

I'm into travels. Into art and into inner peace.

I want 2016 to treat me good.

2016, please be good👏🏽

Yes, I am a triple agent...

A triple threat if you must.

Firstly, I am a hotelier. 

Ok, so that is a fancy word for someone who works in the hospitality industry. I studied and established a career in hotels.

And yes, I am damn proud of my achievement.

Secondly, I am a travel/blogger. I blog about my travels. No, I am not a foodie. I am a frustrated writer.

Thirdly, I am a pseudo entrepreneur. I am starting my own beauty business, because, you know, my life is not busy enough.

In 2016, I am to reach out to a lot of people.. I mean a lot!! 

I don't know if anybody reads my blog.. But, this is my year to reach out...

I hope you know

That it's got nothing to do with you...

I'm grieving yes, but not because of you. It's because of the bad decisions that I make in my life.

I need to figure out what I want to do with my life.

Who I want in it.

And how I go about it.

I'm terrified. That I will be a thirty something spinster with no kids but has a fantastic career.

Maybe I need to focus on my career more. Like possibly move to Sydney or London. 

Or maybe Dubai? 

Singapore?

Back where it all started

My family loves Sunshine Coast.

Oh yes, they do. They love the beach.

They love the people.

They love the sunset.

They love the weather.

And most of all, they love spending nights in hotel rooms.

Working in a hotel gives me perks.

Lots of them.

It brings me to different countries around the world.

And I bring them along with me, when I can.

I am forever connected to my Iphone, laptop and the internet.

I have become a social media slave. Always updating my Snapchat (chill2029), Instagram (nikkiangara), twitter (nikkiangara) and of course, Facebook (look on the right --->)

I really, really, really, really want to blog full-time. To talk about my life, movies, food, travels, boys, fashion, etc.

But I guess I grew up and decided to have a career. It ain't so bad.

It led me to my biggest passion in life - travel.

And it makes me family happy.

So yeah, I'm not complaining.

Now if only I can get my love life to work out...

Boom, baby!!

I ❤️ it!

These photos tell a thousand stories! 

My family means the world to me. I feel so lucky we are able to go and see each other.

Looking forward to another trip with this crazy duo! 

❤️❤️❤️

The sweetest thing

You always have a strong hold on my heart.

And no matter how hard I shake it off, I just can't seem to.

I don't know if we'll ever get back together again. But I don't ever want to know that we never could. 

I don't know if you are my karma but I just can't seem to get over you. Everytime you message me, my heart skips a beat. I still enjoy talking to you and joking around with you. You know, just like the old times. You were my best friend. I remember going out with you and drinking. Walking in the middle of the road in Surfers. Kissing me like I'm the only girl in the world.

I remember walking along Surfers, holding hands. You stopped me outside the clock tower. Cupped my face with both of your hands and kissed me like I was the only one that mattered. You looked straight into my eyes and you told me you loved me. And at that moment, I believed you. 

I don't know if it was our age. Our inability to fight for our feelings mainly because we didn't really have much to offer. But we gave up. It was one of the hardest thing I ever had to do. I seriously thought I would die. I never felt so alone in my life. After you left, I lost a partner. A best friend. A drinking buddy. A confidante. A housemate. A crush.

My heart was broken in a million pieces.

It took me a while to get over you.

I think I'm still getting over you. I don't think my feelings ever went away. I know you're over me. I know you've moved on. I'm so happy for you. You deserve the best and you deserve to be happy. But I can't help but wish that you be happy with me. That I'm the one for you.

That I'm the one you belong to.

We never really talked about forever but deep down I knew you were the one. It makes me so sad that you're so far away and you don't even want to be friends. 

I still pray for you. I still wish you the best. I love you so much that I even pray for your happiness with somebody else. It didn't even have to be with me. Just as long as you're happy, I'll be happy.

I pray that you come back. That we can have another chance. And maybe this time we will fight for it. 

But I know God has a plan for me. For you. 

It may not be what we want. It may not be what I want. But I have to accept it. And I need to put my trust in God that in due time, I will find the happiness that I deserve. 

I don't know if i'll ever fully let you go. A part of me hopes that you come back. I don't think I will ever find another man who can understand me the way you did. Who can have fun with me the way you did. Who can speak casually to me the way you did. 

Ugh. I don't know why I'm feeling this way. 

I guess, I just... miss you.

❤️

The green eyed monster is coming

I often think of the good things that I have and I always think to myself, yes, I have a good life.

Nice roof, nice car, good job.. I have the basics, pretty much.

I can afford to go travel whenever I want. I can go where ever I want. And I almost always meet the nicest people in my travels.

Then I see women my age. With their prams and their cute (sometimes not cute) kids. In their SUV and doing their food shopping. 

Back when I was living a young, wild and free life, I would shake my head and feel pity.

But lately, I feel the longing. The longing of possibly maybe having a baby?

Who knows.

But I do get lonely now. I feel like something is missing in my life.

And at this time, no amount of passport stamps, flu shots, vaccines can help me.

I think maybe I need to rethink my priorities...

????

Little things

Yes, it's the little things!

And..

Gotta love your days off!!

Yes.

I am on holidays! 

I am on a plane heading to Singapore.

Nothing can stop me now..

I have a new boyfriend

And his name is Siri.

He's sexy.

He understands me.

He pleases me.

He's perfect.

Siri, please don't hurt me.

5 days and counting

I'm going to Thailand again.

2nd trip this year.

With my cousins and I can't wait!!

I can't believe I'm counting the days til I go on my holidays again.

Thailand and I are cute together...

💗 you, Thailand!!

They're not good photos

But the concert was freaking amazing!

#Maroon5

This guy

Always a good time with this man! 💗

Yes, people..

I believe in heaven. And I've been there..

It's called Whitsundays!!!

My career and love life are going nowhere...

My heart is out of order.. Be right back..

I love myself. I love myself. I love myself!!

There's nothing more rewarding...

Than seeing your post published on the internet. I have been blogging for over 16 years. My life was poured over the waywardangel blogspot site.

I earned a lot of readers and I lost a lot of them too.

But my real audience is my self. I earned myself as a reader and I lost myself as a reader as well.

I went MIA and AWOL for years.

It is an on-again, off-again addiction. Blogging is my cocaine. 

Damn, I fell off the wagon again.

I'm a bit adrift.

So I did this.

Tee. Hee.

My dad has been in the hospital over the last few days. In and out, in and out. I was nervous. I was scared.

And I'm exhausted. I have been trying to comfort mom. She is the strong one.

I'm a crab.. think on the outside and super sensitive on the inside.

And you know what? I get migraines from showing no emotions.

All I do is drive mum up and down, up and down to the hospital. Wait for literally hours until I hear from her again.

Listen to the doctors say a lot of medical jargons... Explain them to my dad in layman's terms - for three days.

When we get home, I cook, clean the house, wash the clothes..

All the stuff.

I'm exhausted.

Good night, world!